(open. a paragraph or more is asked, however. --No, Xaver is not in England anymore. No, he's not immediately accessible. And no, he's not really okayss.. =(
GIINNNNYYY, I callll on theeee! ^_^ First, post, anyway? lol. idc. <333 lubbb - Xav.)
It was the smell of antiseptic that woke him. Permeating his senses, his nose, his mouth. There was no sight. No sound. Nothing but the smell and the proprioception that he was still whole, and flat on his back; nothing but the wonder of the wrongness that was so deeply engrossed in the depths of his soul. Fingers felt distant as they brushed his all too fuzzy cheek, and the light tones that sounded overhead were jumbled, and agonizingly unfamiliar in the murky depths of blackness that was all but smothering him.
Ginny.
Xerxes.
Meliody.
The loves of his life, and the only images he could seem to formulate through the fog – where were they now? He was stuck somewhere between the living and a hearse, if the water-logged feel of his body was anything to go by, but–
A prick in the right underside of his wrist startled him, but he physically gave no response, surprised at the feel of a cool needle sliding into his flesh, but not able to muster any form of reaction. Everything was too heavy, and the numbness was too complete. Warmth flooded into his arm, and all too soon the small break of alertness he had faded, and again came the rush of everything he couldn’t understand, and nothing at all.
“Ginny…”
His brow pinched, sudden awareness startling him into a sort of half-awake, half-dead haze. His tongue felt thick, but even as he soundlessly murmured his wife’s name, he felt more at home within himself; more alert. More confused.
“Sir?”
The light, feminine tones that he didn’t recognize but found strangely familiar came from his left. He couldn’t force his head to turn or his eyes to open, but his brow pulled in understanding. The small movement brought an odd pain to the side of his head, but through the haze of drugs he seemed to be under, through the steady flow into his arm, he couldn’t tell the extent of it, the pain or the injury.
“Sir, can you open your eyes for me?”
No, he couldn’t. He didn’t really want to. He was still dog tired, and-
Fingers pried his left eye open, and a light was pointed into it. Reflexively, he bristled, but no muscles responded below his throat, and few even stirred in his face. Even so, the woman released his eye, and a click sounded the light being turned off.
“Sir, can you tell me your name?”
He stilled.
His name?
His brow pulled again, furrowing, this time bringing a searing pain through his temple, though he fought to ignore it, tearing through his thoughts. His name?!
“Sir?”
He knew his name.
He knew his name..
“Xa..”
He hiccupped mid-word, his throat a swollen and torn mess and his tones coming out too light and thready to even be understood. A small hand lightly patted the top of his arm, just over the needle pumping the drugs into him.
“No worries, sir. You’re alive, that’s what counts. We’ll get your details later.”
His lips parted, but little but a hoarse whisper came out – and she was gone. He clenched his teeth together, annoyed at the little strength he could even muster in that. They were drugging him. They had to be. There was a reason, that..
Darkness and the endless depths of nothing took him without a breath of warning.
“Joy, we don’t even know this fella’s name. He could be a criminal, for all you know. A freak. They don’t just come ‘n here lookin’ like that while retaining any semblance of innocence.”
“I know, doctor. But-”
“It’s not doing you any good getting yourself emotionally protective over your patients.”
“Doctor Sanders, I know. But you can’t just move him. He’s safe here; and he’s been in and out of a comatose state for nearly three days. It’s not like he’s going to even be walking in three months. Moving him to another facility might put him at risk-”
“For wh-”
“I’ve been doing this job for a long time now, Manny. They don’t come in here looking like that on accident. Someone did this to him. Someone who is still out there. A public facility just isn’t appropriate right now.”
American accents.
Xaver’s eyes slowly slid open, the dark, icy depths of his blue oceans flickering over his surroundings. White seemed to be the theme here, from the curtains of the barred window across from his bed, to the walls and the floors, the furniture, and the bedding. It was dark beyond the curtains, and no lights were on in his room, but enough light penetrated in through his open door from the hallway – another expanse of endless and boring white. At least the maze of bruises coating his body brought a little color to his area. Looking down at himself, his lips twitched at the thought, though slightly despairingly. The two down the length of the hallway at the nurse’s station had been his primary care-takers, but he’d been adamant in keeping them ignorant to the fact that he’d fully awoken from whatever darkness had swallowed him so wholly. He rarely trusted, and strangers that had him pinned in a strange room were at the top of his list for distrust.
Gaze flickering to the rise beneath the pale sheets where his feet idly jutted, his brow furrowed. He wiggled his toes, focusing through the numbness that had enraptured his body so completely. Though he was not comforted, he was satisfied as they wiggled at his command.
He had to get out.
Even if he hadn’t stood on his own in who knew how long.
Ginny.
He had to get to Ginny.
The instinct that was so deeply ingrained within his creature struggled with every passing moment lacking action, his heart strumming an aching bruise into the underside of his chest. He was not built for confinement – not built for cages, or walls. Which was within exactly that he seemed to be stuck.