Topic: The Meeting in the Dorms (Avalee needed!)

[Aiden]

Aiden looked at Stacey, his eyes deep.  How he acted like a stupid boy, he was nineteen for heavens sake! 
He gently took Stacey's hand in both of his own.  He looked down at them. He found himself almost wanting to cry, even though he knew wouldn't .  Yell? Yes, may do that.

Aiden took in another deep breath.  He was breathing quickly now, finding himself unable to stop.
"Stacey...I don't know.  Everythings happened so fast."

[potter_fan122]

Stacey closed her eyes and took deep breaths. She clenched her jaw until her lip stop trembling. She was still crying, but she knew she wouldn`t be able to stop them.

"Aiden," She said, opening her eyes and looking at him. Pain was still clearly there, even though she tried to hide it. She couldn`t lie to Aiden, she never had been able to. "I love you, you know that. I love you more than I`ve loved anyone else. But I-- I need to know. Do you love her?"

[purpleraincloud]

Avalee sat alone, scared, nervous, and now full of regret. She had caused the one she loved pain. PAIN! She hated herself. He was going to have to come up, soon, or she was going to die. She cranked up the music until it hurt her ears. She tried to distract herself. And even though she didn't know Stacey she felt bad that she would cause her pain. They had told each-other last night that they loved each-other. Would he say that to Stacey. She turned her head to the door, still wanting to run.

[Aiden]

He knew that was coming.  Obviously she would want to know, only if he had an answer, a way to explain.  Aiden looked up at her, flinching as he saw her expression.
"Yes." He whispered, his voice so quiet he wondered if she could hear him.

Aiden loved Stacey so much, too.  He didn't want to lose her.  He wanted to find a way to fix this, but he wouldn't be able to fix things the way they used to be.

[potter_fan122]

"Yes."

The word hit her hard, almost like it was more than just a word. Stacey doubled over, clutching the side of the bench so tightly that her knuckles were white and the tendons were pushed plainly out. She gasped once before she clenched her teeth shut.

Shaking her head, she stood up, pulling her hand out of his. She backed away until her back hit the wall. She blinked quickly a few times, tears streaming down her face silently. Her eyes were a dark black, still plain with pain. She held her arms tight across her stomach. She felt like throwing up.

"Aiden," she finally spoke, "When I first met you, I knew that I had to chose. You or Nate. I chose you, and I have never regreted my desicion. But, things seemed to have turned around now, and... now it`s your turn to chose." She said, her voice craking and trembling. She could hardly get a sylable out without sobbing, but she managed. she had been hurt like this before, but it hadn`t been this bad. It felt like something was trying to claw her heart out.

"I love you, okay? I always have and I always will. But I want you to be happy." She couldn`t look at him anymore, she slid down to the ground and hid her face with her hands.

[Aiden]

Aiden watched Stacey's reaction, his expression was life-less but his eyes betrayed the horrid emotions he felt inside.  He quickly stood up, and knelt down beside her.  He wanted to hug her, kiss her, tell her everything was alright.  Now, he didn't know if she felt the same way, not matter what she said.  He didn't believe someone could love him, after the person he'd become in only one night.


Aiden reached his hand out to take her hand, but stopped it.  He didn't know what to say.  He wanted Stacey to be angry with him, to slap him across the face and say she never wanted to see his face.  She was too forgiving...
"Stacey..."  He stopped himself. 
His hand was still in the air, halfway between himself and Stacey.   Aiden dropped it to the ground, taking in deep slow breaths even though inside he wanted to scream.

[potter_fan122]

Stacey quickly wiped the tears away and closed her eyes. She shook her head nad let it rest against the wall.

"Aiden, please don`t." She whispered. she leaned forward and wrapped her arms around his waist resting her head against his shoulder. It felt so natural to hold him like this. To love him. To think that things might change was.... unbearable.

[purpleraincloud]

She turned off her music. She was going to go into cardiac arrest if they didn't come back soon. It hadn't been long, but it felt like days since she was sitting in that tiny room with the man she loved, and his wife. She sat. Some people passed through the common room, but they just ignored her, and the ones who tried to talk to her were ignored, she pretended that she was listening to music.

She had heard a little about Stacey from some kids she talked to, and apparently Stacey had to make the same decision that Aiden had to know at one point. She obviously chose Aiden. She felt so terrible that she had to mess things up for her like that. Tears came to her eyes as she thought about how she would feel. She tried to blink them away.

Avalee remembered that night. That one wonderful, beautiful, destructive night. She remembered the warmth of his hands, arms, and his lips. She wished she could go back, but knew that it wasn't possible. She remembered what it was like after kissing him to see his shiny wedding ring on his finger, to realize the beautiful mistake that had happened.

She wiped away the tears, waiting for them to return.

[Aiden]

Aiden's eyes swelled up with tears, but he blinked before he dare let them escape his eyes.  He told himself he wouldn't cry.  What was he going to do?  He didn't want to be that guy...the guy who uses younger girls, but he also didn't want to be the guy who left his wife for someone else without any excuse whatsoever.  

Aiden's heart pounded in his chest, not fast but hard.  It was actually beating very slow now.  He held her gently, and it almost felt like his hands were shaking.
"I don't know what to do."  He said quietly, hoping she would some of his thoughts at least.

[purpleraincloud]

She waited, and waited. She just stared off into space, her heart beating very slow.
((Sorry for the short post!))

[potter_fan122]

Stacey took deep, shaky breaths.

"Aiden, I love you. I always have and I always will. But I can`t make this desicion for you. You couldn`t make it for me, and I can`t make it for you now. I want you to be happy." She cried and pulled away.

"I want you to be happy, whatever that means. I love you so much, more than I`ve loved anyone else. I just want you to be happy." She shook her head and looked away. She was still crying silently.

[Aiden]

Aiden touch her arm, only with his fingers tips.  He didn't know how Stacey would react to anything he did now.  He used his free hand to rub his eyes, they were dark and red now.

Aiden took in a long breath, exhaling with a deep sigh.  He looked at Stacey while her back was turned.  He'd last all of her trust, and he'd probably never gain it back no matter what he did.
"Stacey, I love you so much.  I want you to be happy, but I don't want to f*ck everything up for you like I've done now.  I'm not the right person for you.  I want you so much, but I'm not healthy for you..."  He said quietly.

[potter_fan122]

Stacey chocked again and turned around. She locked her arms around Aiden, and cried into his neck.

"Aiden, I don`t care if you aren`t healthy with me. So what, okay? I love you in a way that is completaly intoxicating. I... I don`t know if I could last without you, okay? You have f*cked things up, I`m not going to lie about it. It hurt. But Im love you. So, so much that it isn`t healthy." She said all of that on one breath, and stopped to take a breath. The next time she spoke, her voice was a little slower.

"Aiden, how do you know that you aren`tthe right one?" she asked softly. "How do you know? You asked me to marry you, and I did. We were happy, weren`t we. Everything was perfect. So how do you know?" She asked, trying to keep the begging tone from her vocie.

She didn`t like where the conversation was going. She knew that she loved Aiden. It would really tear her to pieces to have to let him go, but she would if he chose that. If he asked for her opinion, she would tell him the truth. She didn`t want Aiden to leave. she wanted to be with Aiden for the rest of her life.

[Aiden]

Aiden closed his eyes slowly.  He put his hands over his face, taking slow breaths again.  He wanted to yell, but he wanted even more for Stacey to scream and tell him the truth.  Tell him he was a stupid ass who wrecked peoples lives up.  Although, he knew she wouldn't.  She loved him too much for that, it was almost wrong.

Aiden kept his eyes closed shut.  His entire body was tense as he kept his hands over his face.
"Stacey..I love you so much.  I want to be with you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you.  But I also love you enough that I want you to be happy, and be with a guy that you can trust, a guy you can put your faith in one-hundred percent."  He paused, pressing his lips together.
"Nate was that guy, but you chose me.  Stupid me!  Why?!"  He said loudly.  He was angry, but not with Stacey, with himself.

Aiden stood up quickly, his hands were in fists and his back to Stacey.
"I love you Stacey Gray."  He began quietly, pausing as he said his own last name that was now hers.  "I love you so much. I don't deserve you, but I have you.  Why?"

[potter_fan122]

"Aiden!" She sobbed, standing up as he did. "Aiden Gray, stop. Okay? I love you, and I`m the one who doesn`t deserve you. Nate was a vampire, and he found his love in Leah. I found you." She had to stop for a moment, trembling again.

"I trust you, still, my moon. I trust you even though you did something bad. You`re telling me this, that`s what counts. A real ass wouldn`t have told me, they would have just left me like Niles did. You stayed. You spoke to me. You have me because you deserve me. You may not think this is true, but it is. It is one of the truest things that I know. I love you, and I don`t want you to go." she said all of this in a rush. She didn`t want him to leave. she couldn`t watch that happen to herself again, and definatly not with Aiden.