Completed Short Diary

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Diary of a Lost Soul
Written out of boredom. Time is of no moment.

Entry One
Why is it, that none understand,
Why it is, there is this blade in my hand?
You hurt me, you teased,
And now you will see,
What the price is,
For doing that to me.

Into my pillow,
Each night I wept,
Wishing for some place,
My troubles could be swept.

My place was never found,
I'm all alone in this world,
To never sleep is never sound,
Darkness, in my corner I will curl.


Entry Two
Diary, you will never guess,
What I saw today,
It may seem hopeless,
But what can I say?

Today I found a friend, Diary,
She's really nice, you'll see,
I think she might be caring,
She actually listens to me.

I think I've made a friend,
Diary, you know how lucky that is,
I hope our friendship will never end,
I wonder what Mommy will says.

Entry Three
I did what Mommy told me,
I told my friend to go to hell,
I don't have any friends now,
I'm not supposed to tell.

I got in trouble for what Mommy said,
The school teacher said, "That's not nice, you see,"
He didn't understand,
Mommy said friends will only make you bleed.

All the kids hate me Diary,
They call me dirty names,
All the kids hate me, Diary,
I am the monkey in all their games.

I wish somebody had told me, Diary,
That what Mommy said was not always right,
I wish I was not always so skinny and wiry,
Then maybe I could win some fights.

Entry Four
I skipped school today Diary,
I'm so tired of playing,
I only wish I had known what to do, Diary,
I should have known what I was doing.

The school nurse said I had Mommy's temper,
That hitting others was bad,
So why could Mommy do it then,
Hit me until I would bleed and whimper,
Why wasn't she spanked and made sad?

I stayed home while Mommy went to work,
Waiting tables at the local café,
I stayed home and looked over my hurts,
Wondering what trouble I would get into today.

Entry Five
I found this knife in the school kitchen,
I asked for it to cut my bread,
Nobody would listen,
So I got it myself instead.

I sat all alone,
At the broken table near the music stage,
I should have known,
That the table was my teasing cage.

Kids teased me a lot,
I didn't know what to do,
So I stood up with this knife,
Said, "You don't know how to feel, do you?"

I told them they'd be sorry,
Told them I'd make them feel bad,
I told them that I was sad,
We're all human, or are we?

My old friend said she didn't care,
Said I was only playing,
She said that I was too scared,
I could only play naming games.
She could care less, in her linens and lace,
While I struggled for bread, and was too sick for a race.

I showed her,
Yes I did,
I slashed my wrist right then and there,
They all gasped as I bled.

I lay here now, all alone,
The doctor said Mommy wouldn't come,
That's okay,
I know she has work to get done.

It's getting cold,
I wish there was someone to hold my hand,
I wish being scared wasn't so old,
I wanted to, just once more, be able to stand.

The doctor says it's no good,
This girl is going to die,
They did all they could,
But now, I have to say goodbye...




Each night into a down pillow, a lost soul weeps.
Each night into solitude, glittering eyes close to sleep.
We are beings of confusion,
Our morals and principals,
Faded and disillusioned.


We all cry,
We all fight and deceive,
Until we make a mockery out of every possibility,
And there is nothing left to believe.

[Ginny Weasly]

Wow, Lav, I like that. You know, in my morbidness, I like it.

[LavyBrown]

morbidness. I like it alot and I'm in no way, shape or form morbid....ok maybe I am alittle. But only alittle.

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Thanx guys. :-* Huggles,

- Lav.