Time passes quick(please join)

[harrypotterfan:)]

Cho still walking slowly reached Sarah and Sirius. She sat down and laid on the soft grass looking up at the sky.

[ChoChangHP118]

i'm not doing much....just hanging out...

[harrypotterfan:)]

((to answer you signature....why don't you just go somewhere on a trip how old are you again...you're old enough to at least go into the city....LOL))

[ChoChangHP118]

(ya but i got no one to go with....and i live half an hour away from the real city in my state. everywhere else is just old and run down...lol and i'm not aloud to leave! sorry to burn down your suggestion.....thanks anyway.)

[harrypotterfan:)]

((oh I see...well I think you should be able to leave your house on a trip....))

Cho got up and said, "I am so bored....I don't feel like doing my potions homework right now...."

[ChoChangHP118]

ha i don't even do it! well i usually get my baybe to help me! *smiles innocently at sarah*

[harrypotterfan:)]

"Well Sarah can you help me with my homework." Cho said smiling.

[Shara2007]

"Well I might be able to help but I will try." Sarah said as she smiled.

[harrypotterfan:)]

((...being sarcastic...))

Cho laughed at Sarah's reply and said,"Nah today is a day of relaxation."

[Shara2007]

"well I can do that too."

[Xaver]

"I don't know..." She said, pressing the heels of her hands to her eyes to try and wipe away the tears. They kept coming though. She couldn't stop crying, and she couldn't stop her feelings of complete worthlessness. And she couldn't stop the outpouring of bad thoughts that had gone through her head at one point of another.

"I don't know anything! I'm a stupid, worthless person, only good for staying here to help with the students. And they don't even want me! I can do nothing right, it seems, and I ask too much of you and others when you actually do show up." She paused, taking a breath, then continued.

"And to be truthful, every time one of you leaves with no warning, all I can think is how selfish you can be! And I know I shouldn't. You are leaving for some reason or another. For a country, for family, for friends. For love. God only knows why, but I can't get it out of my head than I'm stuck here for good to teach our future runners and watch my friends put themselves in danger for almost no reason."

"What do I want? I have no idea. No idea at all." She sobbed, softly. Ginny knew that she was being judgmental, unfair, and mean. She couldn't help it, nor did she really care.

She tried to wipe the tears away again, but new ones replaced them quickly. Somewhere inside, she felt bad about taking it out on Xaver.

"Besides that, I do deserve to have things shot back at me." She cried, in response to one of his thoughts, "I deserve so much more. I deserve to be tortured painfully in Purgatory."

She began bawling..
And it was nearly Xaver's undoing.

His heart sank, and he turned back to her.

"Ginny..."

And suddenly, Xaver was sitting down beside her, not touching her, though he dearly wanted to wrap his arms about her form,.

"You are not worthless. You have done more, and you mean more, than you will ever realize.."

His eyes flickered upward to her, and slowly, he took her hands within his own, and gently pulled them away from her face, finding her eyes.

-I can't tell you I won't leave again. This last time, I had no intention of doing so.. But, Ginny.. It seems that every time I am away, it just gets stronger. I am reminded, more fiercely, of just how much I hate it.. I have come to realize, that being away from you is just illogistical. I.. can't do it..-

[Ginny Weasly]

Ginny looked at him, her eyes still filled with tears. She shook her head, now scowling.
"Sorry." She said, looking away from him.
"I shouldn't have said that. Any of it."

She glanced at him, angry at herself now.


((sorry, i gotta go. I dunno if I'll be on later or not. ))

[Xaver]

When she looked at him ..he almost let his mouth just run without thought.
He'd almost said, what he'd been thinking for ages. Why didn't she just be with him? Maybe they could both compromise, and, she could go with him? Be with him? ..Or he could figure out a way to stay there?..

Xaver reeled with the thought.
Almost letting his tongue continue on, unchecked..

...Xaver had almost proposed to her.

It was oddly uplifting, and terrifying at the same time.


Xaver met her eyes ..and felt an odd, painful jolt when she scowled.
"Sorry. ...I shouldn't have said that. Any of it."

She looked away from him, and his face fell.
She shouldn't have said that to him?
..He didn't understand.
Though, Xaver blamed himself, for that. It was his fault he'd been away, in the end. If he wasn't who he was ..a whole lot of things would be better.

Slowly, he rose.
Against everything he knew, and wanted, and truly needed, he stepped away from her, though his footfalls made no sound.

"Alright. ..When you don't regret talking to me, then.. You'll know where I'll be."

Even if he didn't, at the moment.
He padded to the door, and slipped out, allowing it to shut, quietly, behind him, before he started walking..


((Ok, talk to you later!))

[harrypotterfan:)]

((that was so sweet....LOL))

[Ginny Weasly]

((Sweet is sweet! Lolz. I like making trouble for Ginny right now. :P ))

Ginny flopped back against the pillow, rubbing her eyes, tiredly.
"I can't believe I said all that to him..." She mumbled to herself, "He has enough to worry about. He shouldn't need to worry about how I feel." The nurse finally saw she had an opportunity to give Ginny a sedative and hurried over.

Ginny didn't even pull away. In fact, she lowered every shield she had so that sleep would take over her. That was all she wanted at the moment. She felt awful. She felt like the worst person in the entire world. She felt like she didn't deserve anything. So in all her self pity, she slipped out of this world, into the one of darkness.

She lay still for many hours, visions of the future, or, possible future running in her head on high speed. Ginny probably wouldn't remember any of them when she woke up, or at least, most of them. The sedative would keep her asleep for a few hours, well into the night. Even asleep, she knew she had to find Xaver and apologize for her outbursts again.