Soooo booored

[Ginny Weasly]

Ginny's mouth dropped open in shock and she flushed a bright red, her cheeks and ears scarlet.
"Wha..."She started to say but she simply looked at him in confusion, "Wha...? But...?" She couldn't form a question, or even a though.

She couldn't get past the thought that she hadn't seen that coming.

[ChoChangHP118]

(ha, right, hadn't seen it comin' ay?)

*sirius smiled.* i know ginny, its a big thing when someone kisses you. are you sure you'll be allright. *sirius smiled he felt more relaxed now.* you have no idea how long i've actually wanted to do that...

[Ginny Weasly]

((Well, I saw it, Ginny didn't. She oblivous.))

No one had kissed her since Xaver, at least two months ago. She had forgotton what kissing felt like, and it surprised her. She touched her lips with her fingers then gave him a sarp look.

"For five minutes, I suppose." She told him, scrutinizing him.

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius looked at the ground.* actually ever since you told me about what you and Xaver had. i've never been that close to anyone. sarah and i were close...but not that close. i thought that maybe by kissing you i could feel what you and him had...*he looked at her and smiled.* aren't you mistaking my attention span of five minutes for this?

[Ginny Weasly]

She starred at him with surprise, "You want to kiss me? Really?"

Ginny smiled then, almost sweetly, "I sorry to be suspicious, Sirius." She closed her eyes and shook her head softly, "I didn't tell you everything about Xaver. I loved him so much. And the first time we kissed, it was as though electricity was coursing through me. Blissful is the only way to discribe it." She still had her eyes closed, remembering the feeling with a smile on her face.

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius smiled at her. she was so lucky to have an amazing memory. all of his and sarah's good memories seemed to be fading fast from him. he could barely remember what her lips felt like. nothing like ginny's that was for sure.*

[Ginny Weasly]

She opened her eyes then, surveying him like a hawk.
"I'll never find another Xaver." She told him softly, "I'll always love him." She looked sad again, as she realized this again. She looked to Sirius and pulled out a fake smile, however.

"You and Sarah will be together in the end..." She told him.

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius looked at ginny.* i understand. you could never replace someone like Xaver i understand that. and i know that smile is a fake ginny. *sirius raised his eyebrow.*

i don't know if i want to end up with her though. everyone says we'll end up with each other in the end...but...

i guess the reason i hate that idea is i don't want the end to come. *he sighed.* its stupid i know. i mean, we all end sometime. i jsut don't want to think about the future. i live day by day and i dont think of anything else...

[Ginny Weasly]

Ginny nodded, "I understand."

She gave him a hug, nodding again, "If it helps any, one action can change the future or set it in stone." She told him, "I should have had my first child by now. But Conan's action to decide to kill me, which led to our divorce, changed that." She gave him a squeeze then stepped back.

Again, she looked at him like a hawk, "You really want to know what Xaver and I felt?" She asked, slowly.

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius hugged her lightly back and listened to her every word.*

i would give anything to feel what you to must have felt... *he said truthfully.* i never met him. but the way you talk about him...i can't even imagine.

[Ginny Weasly]

Ginny gave him a sly, mischieves grin then, "yes, yopu can." She said, softly, taking half a step closer to him.

"But you have to trust me."

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius barely breathed with her getting closer.* i trust you. *he said almost in a whisper so as to not destroy the peacefullness of there surroundings.*

[Ginny Weasly]

"Good." She told him, smiling sweetly.

"Absence of sight..." She reached up and with gentle hands, closed his eyes. As she finished the last sound, he would have opened his eyes and not seen at all.
"Absence of sound," She touched each ear, and he was instantly deaf. But he could hear her next words in his mind.
-Absence of touch.- She grasped each hand, and his whole body went numb.

His world was dark and quiet for a moment, before, in his mind's eye, he was plummeted back a year in the past. He could see Ginny and Xaver, sitting in the forest, surrounded by leaves. Then he saw from Ginny's view point, as though he was seeing through her eyes. He could feel it when Xaver gently tugged Ginny's hair, and the flip his stomach did.
What the two said was unimportant, as they stood and slowly started walking up a path. At some point, Xaver touched Ginny's hand, and Sirius could feel the electrical current that passed between them. And when Ginny stood on her toes, the point of view changed.
As Ginny and Xaver's lips touched the first time, then the second, Sirius himself could feel the pure blissful feeling. The electricty up and down their spines, rather like ice and warm oil at once. The shivers and goosebumps that came from two simple kisses. The sudden need for more, the terrible self control. And the happiness.

This scene faded, showing Ginny and Xaver in a dark, stone room, sitting side-by-side against the wall. Xaver had no shirt on, his large black wings were spred over them both, and the feelings of contement, of perfection, security, needfulness was felt by Sirius. He still could not hear their words, but that mattered not. It was the feelings he had wanted to experiance.

Suddenly, Sirius could see, he was out of Ginny's memory, and she was still holding his hands, reciting the return spell. She looked at him with soft eyes, a smile on her face. There were small tears in her eyes.

"Now you know some of what we felt. That first was the very first time I'd kissed him."

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius could not speak.*

*he couldn't move.*

*he was taking in little breaths. it had been so amazing. more then he could handel! the way ginny and Xaver must have felt for each other was unbelievable. sirius would kill for something like that, to be able to have that connection. to feel that way about someone and know they felt the same for you. it was unimaginably brilliant.*

[Ginny Weasly]

Tears slid out of Ginny's eyes, but she didn't move to wipe them off. She didn't notice them.

"He would go away, and come back. Each time I was terrified that he had found someone new. But each time, he proved to me his love within moments." She stopped, unsure of how to go on, "Sirius, It's been almost three months since I have seen him. I think..." She could not finish the sentence.