Soooo booored

ChoChangHP118 · October 19, 2007, 10:44:04 AM

*sirius wanted to know what she thought. but it was numb still. he couldn't find the right words...he finally managed to.* you think what? *he said softly, unaware of her crying once more.*

Ginny Weasly · October 19, 2007, 10:46:19 AM

"I think I killed him..." She said, softly, "I mean not to sound vain. But he and I...the words I spoke to him...I have not seen him since...I have not been able to connect to his mind since..."

The tears coursed down her cheeks, dripping off her her face and landing on their hands, which were still clasped.

ChoChangHP118 · October 19, 2007, 10:50:58 AM

oh ginny. *sirius said to her simpathy in his tone. he wiped away her tears and hugged her.* i'm so sorry...

Ginny Weasly · October 19, 2007, 10:58:18 AM

"Now you know what he means to me. Now you know what I have done." She closed her eyes, unwilling to look at him, feeling she didn't deserve his small kindnesses.

"My worst crime has been to kill the one person who loved me with every fiber in his being."

ChoChangHP118 · October 19, 2007, 11:01:33 AM

*sirius lifted her chin so he was looking into her soft eyes.* ginny, you don't know that you killed him...just because you said some things that you deeply regret doesn't mean that you killed him. i'm sure he still went on with his life, a big part of him was missing yes, but he still went on...i'm sure he did...

Ginny Weasly · October 19, 2007, 11:04:08 AM

Ginny's eyes were half panicked, showing how close to hysterics she was getting, "No...you still don't undertstand. Xaver wouldn't do that. No matter how large his anger!" She gasped, suddenly finsing it hard to breath, "Xaver...Xaver would have tried to contact me somehow..."

(In actuallity, I talk to Xaver all the time through e-mail.)

ChoChangHP118 · October 19, 2007, 11:09:17 AM

(Wow, that's funny! lol)

it wasn't you who killed him though! maybe it was...i don't know! *sirius smiled.* it wasn't something that you did ginny. he's strong, he would've managed that. something or someone got to him before he could say he was sorry though. that was probably it. *sirius was trying to give other reasons for why Xaver had stopped communicating, when in truth. he had no idea.*

Ginny Weasly · October 19, 2007, 11:12:14 AM

(Yes, but recently, Xaver has stopped answering my e-mails, which gives me cause for worry.)

She threw her arms around him suddenly, almost throwing him off balance as her arms squeezed his shoulders.
"I only hurt those who care for me." She said, resting her head on his chest as the tears continued to fall.

ChoChangHP118 · October 19, 2007, 11:17:28 AM

(Yes that does seem to be a good reason for worrying.)

*sirius placed his hand on her back then the other on her head trying to comfort her after regaining balance.* ginny, if that were true then i would probably be dead. *sirius smiled with his mouth closed.*

Ginny Weasly · October 19, 2007, 11:19:14 AM

Ginny's eyes grew wider, if possible, and as quickly as she had wrapped her arms around him, she now tried to push him away.
"If you stay my friend, you will be." She said, believing what she said was true now.

ChoChangHP118 · October 19, 2007, 11:24:12 AM

*sirius willingly let his hands slide to his side once more. looking at ginny.* well i am telling you right now, i have no intention of leaving you. no matter how hard life becomes, i will always be there for you.

Ginny Weasly · October 19, 2007, 11:32:24 AM

Ginny's hands went to her face, covering it as she fell to her knees, sobbing. The sky darkened, the forest became colder, and Ginny's hands became drenched in blood. It was all only an illusion, something she saw almost every moment of every day.

She wrenched her hands from her face, trying despretly to wipe the blood from her hands, but it only smeared.

ChoChangHP118 · October 19, 2007, 11:35:01 AM

*sirius looked at ginny, but didn't know what to do.* ginny! *he said to her. trying to break her out of this trance that she seemed to be in.*

Ginny Weasly · October 19, 2007, 11:41:23 AM

She looked up, her eyes hysterical and she gasped for breath. She held her hands up, knowing he could see them too, "I did this!" She cried out.

ChoChangHP118 · October 19, 2007, 11:44:59 AM

*sirius blinked and jumped back horrified. he finally saw why ginny hate blood so much. after recovering from his stumbling backwords, he walked towards ginny again, trying as best as he could to ignore her hands. he sat down next to her.* ginny, try not to think of that. ok? think of happier moments. don't dwell on the past...just try and move on. don't look at the blood...it will only make you go insane.

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