Soooo booored

[Ginny Weasly]

"I am already...insane..." She sobbed, wiping her hands on the grass, her robes, anything to try and get rid of it. Anything to get rid of guilt.

"I can't...live like this..." She was more then hysterical now, she was losing control. Not of her powers, but of her emotions. Now she reached up, her nails digging into her scalp as she struggled with herself.

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius grabbed her hands and forced them down. he looked in her eyes sternly.* ginny. you need to focuss on other things. you get what you focus on and you are looking at the worst of the things in your life.

[Ginny Weasly]

She fought him, half screaming with rage at his interferrence.
"No! I can't...expose you and the others!" She choked out, before falling against him her sobs uncontrollable for some reason beyond her.

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius let go of her hands when she fell on him.* expose us to what? *sirius asked her calmly. holding her lightly.*

[Ginny Weasly]

"To me..." Se sobbed into him, her body shaking with each cry.

[ChoChangHP118]

oh ginny...*sirius said as he tried to calm her.* you make it sound like your a disease...

we being your friends see the goodness in you and that's all. we trust that you won't do anything. so you should have more confidance in yourself...

[Ginny Weasly]

"You don't know what I am capable of!" She cried, now clenching his shirt in her hands she she cried.

"I killed more people then I can remember..."

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius looked in her eyes.* don't you think for one second that your friends don't know your powers'. we just know the good power's in you though!

you are a friend to us. you help us! you've helped more people in danger then you can count to. you just look at the wrong things! forget death! live and be happy!

[Ginny Weasly]

Ginny was silent, except for her sobs while she tried to answer. Finally, she was able to squeeze out, "That's what he would tell me."

[ChoChangHP118]

*he wiped her tears off her cheaks once more.* then remember his words and trust them...

[Ginny Weasly]

"He also said he would never leave me." Ginny added bitterly after a moment. Sh had stopped crying now, but was still gaining controlof her breathing.

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius sighed.* ginny, give him a break! he mest up. we all have before! so he mest up more then others...he's just like everyone else though. you just loved him so much that you are thinking of him as more then just a man.

[Ginny Weasly]

"I'm not blaming him." Ginny shook her head, bitterness growing in her chest, "All I'm saying is that he didn't know he'd have to leave me, so he may have been wrong about other things."

[ChoChangHP118]

like what other things? *sirius said calmly to her.* everyone's wrong about things sometimes. and not everyone can predict the future...*sirius put his arm around her.* well, unless your name is ginny. because man, i don't know if you've met her. but oh my is she amazing. *sirius smiled.* she can save millions of people easily! i mean...sure she's made mistakes. but who hasn't? and ya, maybe she can overreact...but again, who doesn't? all i know is, she's a great girl. *sirius whispered lightly in her ear.* she just doesn't give herself enough credit.

[Ginny Weasly]

"Maybe she can only save millions because she knows she's killed more then billions."

Ginny said, looking at him sideways without moving her head. Her eyes were red-rimmed and dark. Her face was strangly pale, not just from crying. In fact, she looked sick.