Forgivness

LavyBrown · February 11, 2008, 06:08:52 AM

Lavy sat in the common room in one of the big amrchairs. It was 4 in the morning but she couldn't sleep. She had finished all her homework hours ago and now, in front of the dying fire, she sat in silence.

Hogwarts had changed ssince she had left and although she had been bac for a few days now it still didn't feel completly effortless to put on a smile.

She had met up with all her old friends. Everyone was happy to see her but she could tell from their tones and the looks they gave her that some still hadn't complety forgiven her for abandoning them. She didn't even have to listen to her thoughts to know how some people felt towards her return.

She quickly wiped away the tears that were sliding down her cheeks when she heard someone coming down the steps.

Shara2007 · February 11, 2008, 06:35:12 AM

Sarah had went up to the Gryffindor girls dormory to talk to someone but that person had not been there so she decided that she would walk down the stair and go back to her room. When she got to the bottom she could tell that someone was sitting in the chair by the fire. Not sure who it was Sarah thought she would walk over to it.

Once she got there she saw her friend Lavy sitting there. She thought she would stay and talk. "So why you up this late at night."

LavyBrown · February 11, 2008, 06:38:53 AM

"Plenty of reasons." Lavy smiled, "I'm more worried about what you were doing here when your not Gryffindor." she crossed her arms.

Shara2007 · February 11, 2008, 06:42:22 AM

"well I came to talk to some one." Sarah said she was going to go back to her room and pull her water ballon prank on people before she stopped to talk to Lavy.

"Besides why you so worried about me being in this dorm and not Ravenclaw. I mean I've been doing this for years." Sarah then sat down on one of the sits.

"I mean I hardly every sleep in my own dorm. I mean you've not given me a really reason on why you're up."

LavyBrown · February 11, 2008, 06:46:52 AM

Lavy's smile sudden;y left her facewhen she realized that Sarah was right. She didn't know that she mostly slept in other people's rooms.

"Oh, I see." she felt herself slipping back into her self inflicted depression, "I didn't know you did that."

Shara2007 · February 11, 2008, 06:50:35 AM

Sarah looked at her.

"Lavy don't be upset. I mean I've changed a lot since you left. I mean you should know that I'm drinking again. Everything has changed." Sarah looked at her for the first time she was able to break her shell and let her cold as ice eyes come though.

LavyBrown · February 11, 2008, 07:01:09 AM

"That's what I'm talking about. I didn't know any of this because I didn't even bother to talk to you. Now I really feel bad." Lavy stood up, but sat right back down when she realized everyone was sleeping.

She sighted, trying to keep herself from crying. "I guess I still don't forgive myself for leaving you guys. I feel responsaible for everything that's going on here. Ginny has had to try and pick up after me and Neo without any help."

Shara2007 · February 11, 2008, 07:06:34 AM

"No Lavy it not your fault at all." Sarah did not want to go into this but she knew she had to.

"It you want to know the truth you should not blame your self but blame Siruis." Sarah then walked over there and hugged her before sitting on a couch.

"I mean it is all his fault. I mean he has my heart and soul with him and he broke up with me." Sarah looked out the window.

"Now he is with someone else and I just feel like I can't get my heart and soul back. I mean I don't want it back I just want him. Since that happened I've hurt lots of people."

LavyBrown · February 11, 2008, 07:10:52 AM

Lavy looked over at Sarah. "What do you mean? How have you hurt people?"

Shara2007 · February 11, 2008, 07:14:11 AM

Sarah looked at her.

"Well I used the curcio curse on more then one person some of them I can't even remeber." Sarah looked at her then she looked at the fire before she said the next part.

"I then tired to rob Gingotts and was caugh but I got away." Sarah was not going to tell her how thought since she did not want her to get friends into this.

LavyBrown · February 11, 2008, 07:17:48 AM

Lavy thought about her words before she spoke again. "Why did you do it? Was it all because of Siruis? Or is there something you're not telling me."

The last part was more of a statement. She knew there was something Sarah wasn't telling her and she was going to get to the bottom of it.'

Shara2007 · February 11, 2008, 07:27:39 AM

"well part of it was becuase of Siruis. The other was I was tired of being a goodie two-shoe and wanted to have some fun. The people had siad they would let me do it if I joined them they also siad I would not get caught. I was easy just had to stun some Goblins." Sarah sat there and sort of smiled remebering it.

"I feel bad I did it know but if I could go back and change it I would not. Well this time I might get caught so that I know that I would never be tempted to do the evil I want to do again." Sarah knew that she was not going back to her old self. She was going to need help.

"I mean you and Ginny taught me all these things that I can't use here at the school."

LavyBrown · February 11, 2008, 07:40:10 AM

"I should have never left." Lavy said, angry at herself, "I can't say that Siruis would have never left but at least you would have had someone to lean on when he did. You wouldn't have been tempted to stray..." her voice trailed off and when it returned it was weak from worry and tiredness.

"You might not have ended up running away even if you had attacked the bank. I would have told you to turn yourself back in and we both know you would have listened to me then. But not anymore."

Shara2007 · February 11, 2008, 07:45:00 AM

Sarah looked at her. "Your right I might have listened to you. I might still listen to you. I will go turn my self in now. That what you want. Wait I just have to go to work and then tell them and they will take me then."

Sarah stood up mad. "your right it might not have been that way if you stayed but it is know and I don't want to talk about the past. I mean I would rather die then live it again."

LavyBrown · February 11, 2008, 07:59:09 AM

"I'm glad you feel that way. Learn from the past, never relive it. That's my motto." She tired to smile but it turned into a grimace when someones thoughts broke through the wall she put around her mind.

That had been happening alot lately and it usually became nearly unbearable. Lavy let her head fall into her hands, willing the voices that were now flooding in to quiet down. They wouldn't. They only got louder.

Within seconds of the first voice breaking through had pressed her forhead up against the table in front of her, trying to get a handle on the situation. "You should go." she wispered to Sarah, not wanting her to see her in the state she was in now.

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