though a [child's] eyes

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Sirius swallowed as he stared down at Cody. For the first time in a long time, Sirius didn't see Xaver in him but saw a child who loved his mother. He sighed and looked at Ginny. "I'm so sorry."

[Ginny Weasly]

Cody kept hold of Ginny's legs, but leaned back enough to give Sirius a withering look. If looks could kill, Sirius would have been dead. There was poison in Cody's eyes. He did nothing but cling to Ginny, though.

Ginny said nothing to Sirius, simply looked down at her son sadly. After a moment of playing wih his hair, she said quietly, "Will no one love you like I do?" It wasn't a question she wanted Cody to answer, but he looked up and did so anyway.

"Dad does. I only need you and Dad."

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Sirius smiled lightly to Cody's response but dared not look at him again for he had been scared by Cody's  look alone that he had just received. He sighed and looked at Ginny. "Did I mention I was sorry? I'm sorry for everything. I'm especially sorry I put Cody into it. I shouldn't have."

[Ginny Weasly]

Cody bared his teeth, growling inhumanly, all the more to scare Sirius. Ginny did nothing to calm her son, except place her hand on his head.

"If you are truly sorry Black, you will give my son and my husband all the respect you try to give to me. I want none of it." Her words were harsh, her voice harsher.

[Xaver]

"No."
Directed toward Sirius.
"You shouldn't have."


Xaver wasn't sure of the emotions stirring in the pit of his stomach - but he understood them.
He was furious - said fury, directed toward Sirius. (A common occurrence, as of late..)
... And he was scared.

Scared, in the way many of his people had been scared, for centuries.

From the time the first Fallen had intermingled with Humans.. They had been conservative about it, but they had been scared.
The Fallen had abilities, sure... But how long would one have to fight, to survive?
To fit in?
...To live, in every means of the word?


The Fallen lord showed no signs of discomfort, but a dark, solemn shade of a bruise discolored the slight unshaven shadow of his jaw, the varying blacks bringing a new, predatory sharpness to the angles of his features. His lower lip was un-flawed, and his cheek was not marred, but a line of blood trailed just beneath the spots as if it they had been split - his quick paced self-healing obviously already in effect, though he hadn't bothered to clean up. He had changed from his loose, formal attire of that morning, and now wore black, pressed slacks, and dark shoes, a deep navy silk shirt flirting just beneath the surface of a black longcoat. Dark, impermeable colors that contrasted sharply to the ghostly shade his flesh now harbored, and effectively concealing any other bruises, or markings he failed to show when he shifted his weight, absently.

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(A bit confused...) 

[Xaver]

".....I'm especially sorry I put Cody into it. I shouldn't have."

--Sirius said that.
Xav pops in, all of a sudden (who knows when he actually appeared) and goes.. That's right. You shouldn't have.. Dun dun dunnnnnn. O_O

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(Ah I see, sorry, not the brightest bulb.)

Sirius literally jumped as Xaver appeared before them all. His eyes stared blankly at him for a moment.

"I apologized what more do you want from me Xaver!?" Sirius nearly shouted at him letting anger overcome his fear. He stood firm glaring at Xaver. Even though his eyes were purple, Sirius let no emotions that made him weaker show.

[Ginny Weasly]

((*rolls eyes* Xaver is just a show off.... ;)))

Ginny didn't turn, and instead kept her eyes on Sirius, scowling slightly. She took a small step forward, facing him now, and gripped his chin, forcing him to look her in the eyes, "I ask one thing of you, Black. One thing. Treat the two being I love most with respect. Or you will be worse off than if I let them do as they wished with you."

Cody looked towards Xaver and smirked wickedly. His feelings were that it was him and his dad against Sirius, the man who had made Ginny cry. But he also felt Ginny didn't need their protection at the moment. She was terrifying in her own way. He had forgotten, for the moment, how much trouble he would be in later, once they remembered that he had snuck out earlier that morning.

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"I will show them respect when they respect me Ginny! They act like I'm someone who will come in and steal you from them when we all know I can't so why don't you just quit this little game Xaver and get over the fact that more then one person may love Ginny!" Sirius continued to stare at Xaver shaking his head slightly.

[Xaver]

(OOHHH he is ;D man's a devil. gaahh! and LOL - your bulb burns plenty bright!!)


Xaver's mouth twitched, at Sirius's response.
"You don't want to know the answer to that question."

What might have been amusement, however, faded as Cody looked at him - the familiar gleam in his son's eyes forcing all humor from him.
He didn't want Cody to celebrate in controversy.
Didn't want his son to revel in the intoxicating effects of the adreniline of a fight. ..Others' dispair.

Cody's feelings mirrored his own, in so many ways...
That unnerved, Xaver, too.
For no one knew his own beast, better than himself... And Xaver was his own worst critic.


He reached out, hands impossibly clean, and curled a finger beneath Cody's chin, lifting the boy's head to face him more completely, the dark oceans of his own eyes searching the similar ones of his son.
He looked at Cody, moody orbs flickering over the boy's face as if to memorize it, fighting to find words - though in the end, there were none that correctly reached his tongue, and he forced them all away. He dropped his hand, messing his son's hair, before leaving him alone, completely.

He was standing completely still when Sirius made his next comment - and for a long moment, there was nothing given away, other than the hardening of his features.

Finally, "This is no game."

[Ginny Weasly]

Ginny scowled darkly at Sirius, "You fear him, you admire him, you want to be like him. But you will not respect him? To earn respect you must give it and I have seen no attempt on your part. Ever!" Her eyes flashed with her anger, and she ignored Xaver and Cody, practically forgetting they were there.

"I know not what goes on between you and Xaver. You are both stupid men, extraordinarily stupid! But as for my child, what has he done to show disrespect? He hardly says more than three words to you, always speaks politely...even though he knows you hate him for some d**nable reason! As far as Xaver goes, I ask you respect him when I can see it. What goes on when I'm not there is none of my concern, is it? But Cody has done you no wrong!" Her cheeks were turning pink from her anger, but the rest of her was pale. She was breathing hard, and she was tired, but she couldn't stop.

"Sirius, if you care bout me at all, you'd stop caring about me!"


Cody took a step back as he watched his mom. He'd seen her angry before, but not like this. It scared him a bit, the way her body was so hot. She looked pale beneath the red flush of anger, though.

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Sirius felt as though slowly his sanity was slipping away as words came pouring in. He was being yelled out by one person, growled at by another, and yet another was looking at him like he was some bad omen. He ran his fingers through his hair, confused beyond reasoning. "I have appologized to you numerous times just now for my behavior towards Cody. Again I say to you, I'm sorry! d**nit woman I'm sorry for my rude behavier, my incompatance, and my inability to get past the fact that Cody is the spitting image of his father so yes I fear him. I don't wish any harm on Cody and I never have!" Sirius spoke these words as if Xaver nor Cody were there. He stared only at Ginny, though her face scared him.

[Ginny Weasly]

"Then why can't you control yourself, dammit? Why can't you do one thing right in your life, you idiotic man? Why must you f*ck with my life like this! Every time I'm happy, you come along and mess it up! You're just as bad as Conan and Mahn!" She wavered slightly, closing her eyes as she suddenly felt faint. But she opened them after a moment and looked him in the eyes again, "Why can't you just do what Cody does? Why can't you be civil and distant? Why can't you leave me alone?!"

"Momma?" Cody spoke suddenly. His tone was soft, fearful. He saw how she moved, almost as if she were about to fall. He saw the flush of her face, the anger in her eyes and wondered slightly if this were too much for her. He swallowed, not moving towards her, but watching her.

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Sirius found no words but merely stared and held out his hands from Xaver to Ginny to Cody. He hadn't meant to ruin Ginny's life but he saw now that he was. He swallowed and let his arms fall to his sides. He looked at the ground, not wanting to look in the face of the one he had hurt the most. Although at this point, Sirius couldn't tell whom it was. He had hurt them all by his ignorance and his interference. "Please, never compare me to the likes of Mahn." Those words stung in Sirius' mind. Ginny comparing him to the two people that she hated most in her life hurt him deep down.