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Haha, I'm totally gonna brag about the fact that in my school district high school starts at 9:00!
YAY!
Still super happy to be RPing frequently again(:
School is starting soon...ehhh

[I love you.]

Avalee jumped when he punched the wall. This was ridiculous. She started shaking, scared and infuriated. They had never fought like this. Never. She was p!$$ed now. He had been back for a while. Long enough for him to make a decision. It should have been enough. Love isn't thought through. Love is instant. At least that is what Avalee knew to be true.

"I love you." She said before he could storm out. Did he seriously think that she was just going to go back to Seth. He was being a jerk for no reason now.

"If you want all your sh!t back, send me an owl." She walked past him, and through the snow. She walked through the trees. Avalee wasn't about to let him see her cry. She was trembling, and felt defeated.

She grabbed the ring around her neck, she pulled it off, and put it in her pocket. She really didn't want to think about it.

["And what if you do go off with Alice? What if after two months of being with her, she realizes that she is still in love with Seth? What if she realizes that they just need some time apart and they are still in love? God Axel! I should have known you were in love with her this whole time! Why would you even start dating me, getting me to fall in love with you, when you were wanting to be with her?"]

Avalee shook her head at him.

"And what if you do go off with Alice? What if after two months of being with her, she realizes that she is still in love with Seth? What if she realizes that they just need some time apart and they are still in love? God Axel! I should have known you were in love with her this whole time! Why would you even start dating me, getting me to fall in love with you, when you were wanting to be with her?"

Avalee took no breath. She needed to get this all out.

["Axel! We only started actually dating less than a month ago! He is older than me, and I couldn't actually date him, the school won't let us. If I were to date him, no one at the school could find out. I have no idea how even Alice knows!"]

"Axel! We only started actually dating less than a month ago! He is older than me, and I couldn't actually date him, the school won't let us. If I were to date him, no one at the school could find out. I have no idea how even Alice knows!"

Avalee took a frustrated breath.

"If you're just saying this because you don't want to be with me, just say it. Let me have that little bit of dignity left." If he just wanted to be with Alice, he should tell her, Avalee knew that. And at this point she really didn't think she had a fighting chance. Alice and Avalee were so different. So different. Avalee had mourned him and missed him...Alice had married another man. Avalee thought that what had happened was enough to prove to Axel that she truly loved him. But no. He had seen Alice first off. Not Avalee.

She remembered the ring of his she wore around her neck every day. It was on now. It always was.

((I got bored today, and made this...
))

["That is none of yor business. You don't know what's happened, or him."]

"That is none of yor business. You don't know what's happened, or him." Avalee was pissed now. In fact though, Phoenix was the one who stopped her from suicide.
She took a deep breath.

"I want to make this work. I love you so much. And I know I keep screwing up. I tak back what I said. You are the same guy. You are sweet. You would never hit me. And you have the same adorable res hair and blue eyes you always did. I love you. "

["I love you Axel. But your different. Just, make up your mind. Because this is too much. Too much stress, too much presure, and too much anxiety."]

Avalee backed away shaking her head, her lips were pressed tightly together.

"I love you Axel. But your different. Just, make up your mind. Because this is too much. Too much stress, too much presure, and too much anxiety." She could feel it in her stomach now.

"This is NOT goodbye. Please, come find me when you figure it all out."

Avalee was so naive. She thought that their reunion would include a nice dinner and lots of kissing. Not screaming at eachother.

["Are you gonna be here? Are you going to stay? Are you going to be with me? Are you going to still be in love with me?"]

"Are you gonna be here? Are you going to stay? Are you going to be with me? Are you going to still be in love with me?" She asked these questions practically begging. It had been so long.

["You've been back for six d**n months. I understand that you needed to figure stuff out, and that life is complicated, love, even more so. But don't toy with me."]

"You've been back for six d**n months. I understand that you needed to figure stuff out, and that life is complicated, love, even more so. But don't toy with me."

Avalee stood up, and pushed back her chair. In the next seconds, she would either kiss Axel, or leave.

["Do you love me, anymore? Did you, ever?"]

Avalee looked painfully up into his eyes.

"Do you love me, anymore? Did you, ever?" She had wondered many times about this. That night at the bar. He was fighting for Alice, surely he had some sort of feelings for her.

["Do you love her?"]

"Do you love her?"

Avalee asked this looking at a plant in the corner. She couldn't look in his eyes, not anymore. It was too difficult. Made her too emotional. She already cried too much as it was. It would just be embarrassing to cry now. This question needed to be asked, and ideally, answered.

Still it was awkward to ask. Mostly because she was scared of his answer, but also cause she was afraid of how his feelings for Alice compared to his feelings for Avalee. Alice was married. And Avalee had been mourning him all these months, while he lived.

I am really bored...but entertained too.
I am happy I can text him...mwahahaha
.....
I don't know why there was an evil laugh there...but it felt like there needed to be one.
It's so much fun too.

ANYWAY...
Drama is good, isn't it ladies and mister men?

["Axel?"]

 She sat there, and looked at her hands. They clenched into fists and unclenched again. She was so dissapointed in herself. She finally had her chance of winning Axel back, even if he was in love with Alice, and she had f***ed it up. Her blond hair was frizzy from the wetness of the snow, and messed up from her stolen moment with Seth.

Seth..., she thought. What had happened? What was that?! It was crazy. And she still felt all odd inside from it. Did he have feelings for her? She wondered about him. Was he with Alice now? Had they made up, or was his ring off for good? Was it her fault?

"Axel?" Avalee asked quietly, all of a sudden.

["I love you, Axel! And it was hell with you gone! But your back, and I still love you!"]

Avalee hit her forehead with her palm and shoved her bangs out of her eyes. She deserved to be hit. She knew she did. Axel was just too nice.

"I love you, Axel! And it was hell with you gone! But your back, and I still love you!" She was shouting at him. She just wanted to fix this and be happy again.

["No, actually it's not..."]

"No, actually it's not..." Avalee turned around and walked away. She needed some time to think. The snow crunched beneath her feet. She knew just what to do. She would go back to her home and change into dry clothes, and then head to the herbology shack to think.

((And we all know what happened next....))