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I literally just got on here and cried. Bye bye hpff.
I'll miss all the good times we had together.

Every time I come on here, I hae full intent to rp with someone. But then I see the lack of rping going on and all my good intentions fly out the window.

I just got fake nails. It's fun typing this.

Anyway, I go to jump into an RP and it's all just so uninspiring, Small, barely there plots with shallow characters. I can't help but wonder if I was once like that? Sadly, yes I was. Honestly I was probably worse.

So here's the deal. I'm going to start a kick ass RP. In good time, let me tell you, but I will. And everyone had better join it because before this site dies, we need one last horrah! A big RP to go out on! A clashing of stories and closure for all our roaming characters, which, be honest, everyone feels is like a little part of them.

And I mean, I didn't eve get to say goodbye :(
So.. Incase no one joins my awesome RP,
Goodbye...
Jackie
Mira
Arianna
Jessie
Leah
Billie
Pete
Ginny
Sirius
Draco
Angel
Lavy
Xaver
Cody
Nate
Alice
Seth
Pheonix
Albus
Stacey

And for all of y'all on this site who pregnant dog and complain about their internet not working, come on!! Where are the troopers I used to RP with who would sneak arond finding unorthodox ways to get on and post a small post?! I know you're all out there, secretely checking up on this site waiting for something on it to inspire you, so do something about it. Inspire yourself. Yeah, YOU. I am talking to YOU! I don't care if I can't see you. I can imagine you! And I imagine you wearing a fuzzy hat and tweety bird sunglasses.

So take off those dang tweety birds and pm me about joining my RP which will soon be up, mark my words.
Mkay, So I'm done.

It's a love fest up in hur.

Jackie shrugged, glad Zepha had gotten them out of there. She hated the fact that some people thought nothing of looking into your private thoughts. She kept her innermost thoughts locked away from prying eyes, but a lot of them were floating around in her head open for many people to see. It was to much effort and concentration to put into daily life to keep blocks on everything.

"So, Zepha." Jackie started. "You ever have major boy problems? Or has your love life been a good old mush fest?"

eeeeeek  :o
dont use the C word..
COLLEGE
duh duh duh...!
why do we have to go away to college?
(and yes i kno we dont have to and YES i know its all for a better education and all that jazz but before you go and mentally correct my question, dont. just let my nonsensical rant be.)
ANYWAYY
i made varsity soccer :] haha
and as for my previous post about writing your name with your booty, go try a capitol E.
guess whaaatt???
I MISSED YOU SKY!
AND SENORA XANTIER!
love you both!
love my shoes to..
love fest up in hur

as for skys school question (siince im sure yall are dying to know!) haha i start school exactly a week from today
and i have done next to none of my summer reading
hehe silly me.

ouch.
my knee hurts.

great night with the gals.
but so this guy i've been crushin on lately is dating someone.. harsh
thought i had a chance but its cool
ive accepted it and moved on
at least maybe if i tell myself and other people im okay with it enough, ill start to believe it myself?
mis amigos are trying to teach my other amiga how to dance
dance = grind!
why does mostly all dancing with men involve grinding?
is it that way everywhere?
or are we just a particularly bad area?
anyway weve figured out there are many different styles..
up and down
circular
side to side
spelling your name..? seriously hard. and i mean it. GO TRY IT
right now go stand up and spell your name with your butt.
now go get a friend and tell them about it. it is hysterical to watch someone attempt for the first time >.<
and apparently i dont bend down far enough :/ weeelll just lemme work on that i guess?
anyway back to ranting! yay rants!
i got a new straightener and it works! yay again :]
mcdonalds is the neighboorhood hang out.. strange? i think so
i mean i understand why and all but there are only so many options and dont get me wrong im a fan of some good old fries but eating it all the time will get you veery chubby veery quickly
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hehe im so silly
i made c1 soccer for next summer! yayy
except im all nervous cause im leaving all my friends behind cause theyre playing c2 and idk if everyone else will be nice to the new girl (me)
soo im done

I just found out my best friend is actually terrified of spoons.
That's so weird..but I guess it's okay because I have a fear of rubberbands.. and small fear of pencils.
Anyone got any weird fears?

I'm scared of 3 things.
1) Failure
2) papercuts
3) splinters...

and my friends think i'm scared of asians... but i'm not!!!!

My friend is scared of pointy objects. Whether it be a full on kitchen knife or a suspicious looking push pin, she needs to have the pointy end facing away from her or she freaks out...

I rather enjoy turtles.
And small gardener snakes.

And lets see for fears..?
rejection
large old-fashioned feather pens
large bottles of liquid
hot tubs filled with more than 8 people
AND
those quiet nights where you're home alone and have had too much sugar so you sit by yourself thinking ohmigawd some robber is totally going to sneak in and kill me right now

hehe im soo tan right now

((wanna keep this going?? :]))

I missed you Sky!!
Love having you back and feel free to jumpy into old threads :))

ps - luh you!

why does it look spo pretty??

at first i thought it was a malfunction or something but nooo!
haha its gorgeous

hey :) everyones going missing... sad to say that'll probably include me soon :? just so much crap going on lately blah
going to miss this place if i don't come back
ill try but no one else is
so...

sigh
yeah definately going to miss this..
not that theres really much left to miss
shoulda seen this place in its prime :/

I know what you mean about not being in the mood.
Just not really feeling it lately I guess.. :/
But I'd be up for a good RP if anyone is willing to put up with my slow replies
!

Everyone left.. :'(
haha sooo busy right now..
2 sports don't mix well

and so tonight i finally came to terms with the fact that we're just friends
and he likes someone else
then found out my friends thought that for a while
apparently no one wanted to let me in on it
even though it was about me
f them all right now
apparently it was pathetic? yeah awesome guys...
k.
carajo you guys

Jackie stiffened, recognition flashing through her at the deep, masculine voice, followed by relief. She knew that voice, but she didn't quite know who it belonged to. The haze of emotion in her mind still hadn't cleared. This person wouldn't hurt her, however, that much she could deduce from her faltering memories.

Forcing the rest of her tears to the back of her mind, Jackie wiped her face with her sleeve and stood. Her knees wobbled slightly, and she frowned at herself for being so weak right now. She was used to being physically superior to most anything she'd encountered so far. Why did she let her emotions get hold of her so tightly?

She could feel them slowly subsiding now. But they would come back soon. They weren't gone, rather the sudden need to find out who the voice belonged to taking its place.

It wasn't wise, creeping towards the voice with her senses dulled, but Jackie didn't trust her voice to be strong just yet. And she felt sure she recognized the voice. No one she knew would hurt her, right? She placed one foot in front of the other, hearing it reverberate in her ears much more loudly than she wanted. Suddenly, a flash of color to her right, made her turn just in time to see a deer coming crashing through the forest at her. She yelped shrily, diving out of the way at the last second.

This didn't make any sense. She was supposed to be the hunter. That was just a deer, and she typically ate deer every few days. She frowned again, brushing herself off, about to stand when she heard a noise behind her. Oh god... She had thrown herself right in front of another person. She turned slightly to see the face of said person.

Again that recognition hit her, but she still couldn't place it. Her memories were tangled with her emotions of sorrow and grief, unably to distinguish people yet. But she knew she knew this man. And when she said man, she meant it. He was big. Not huge, but definately taller than most. And that dark hair.. She studied the face of this person, trying desperately to place it.

The wind whispered softly through the trees, giving a voice to the otherwise silent woods. High above, the full moon shone brightly down on the forest, illuminating the patches of ground that remained uncovered by foliage. It was a serene night; calm and relaxing in the most basic of ways.

At least it was, until the silence was broken by a sharp intake of breath followed by nearly indictable tears hitting crisp leaves. A small girl was sitting in a miniature clearing of the forest, wrapped in an oversized sweatshirt. Her blond hair swathed her face and highlighted her blue eyes, now shining with tears. She was curled in on herself, lost in a bought of misery she found herself spiraling into once every fifty years or so. Usually she had friends or family to help bring her out of this state, but here? She had no one really. Everyone she once cherished had left, moved on with their lives to do bigger and better things, while she was stuck here, unable to leave because of some sentimental reasons. That and the issue that she had nowhere else to go.

Jackie hugged her knees to herself, praying no one would show up and see her like this. Yet also praying someone would find a way to help her out of this state of near depression. She was good at repressing emotions, so much so that when she severed her relationship with Nate, she hardly cried. But they always came back. All of her emotions built up to a point where she couldn't control them anymore. They possessed her with a vengeance that she was helpless against.

She knew she must look weak and pathetic, wallowing in her misery here, but she had been strong for so long, she felt. She wanted someone else to have to do that for a while. But you have no one. She reminded herself, steeling her backbone.

Wiping at her eyes, she pressed her lips together, refusing to let another sob loose. Vampires could go without air indefinitely, but it was uncomfortable, especially when all she wanted to do was cry herself into unconsciousness. Jackie bit her lip. She bit it hard, so hard that it started to bleed. Her own blood tasted terrible, but she was too afraid that if she stopped, she would start to cry again and never stop.

What is wrong with you? She scolded herself. Snap out of it!

Jackie composed herself at the sound of movement around her. Her usually sharp senses were dulled at the moment and she felt oddly vulnerable. "Hello?" She called out shakily.

Jackie shook her head to clear it some. "Sorry." She apologized.

"It's just that I had a rough break-up with him. Long story short, I left for a while, came back and he was with my best friend." She explained, the pain flashing through her eyes once more. Most of the others knew about her hard separation from Nate. They'd also seen enough to leave her alone about it. It just wasn't something she talked about openly, or in much detail.

Jackie looked up at Zepha. "You have nothing to be sorry for. You're new here, I don't expect you to know anything about it. You were just curious, that's all." She said, gently.