Kiara’s Journal Year 7

[Kiara Johnson]

September 12th ---   Hello, well I guess I'm staring a new Journal this year.  As with every other year. I don't know what I had done with my Journal for the 6th year, here at Hogwarts  however, I am certain, it will show up soon enough.  I could only imagine the look on Draco's face if he found it.  But, that, is another story, found in my 6th year Journal.  I really do hope I find it.

Well, enough of that, I'm here to write what's going on in my life so far and let me tell you what, it's not a boring one.  

Today in Potions class, we had. Wait, I forgot to tell you, I made Snape's advanced class.  Well, at any rate, we were all working on this potion and Harry brought it to my attention that this kinda thing could be used against me, or the likes of me, to prevent me from using my Sorcery on others.  Man, is this a shock.  (Sarcasm)  I know Snape is doing this to prevent me from taking control over the world .(Snicker)  Like I want the world.  He is so obsessed with the fact that I am so close to my father.  You'd think he'd just kill me and have done with it.  Although, I suppose he'd not be strong enough or smart enough to pull it off.

Max and I are still together, yes.  As a matter of fact, I am going to stay at his house this summer.  Can you believe it!  Wow, this year is just starting, and already, the out look is good, except maybe for that Potion thing.  

At any rate, I digress, as usual.  I can't wait for this year to be done with, all I can think about is FINALY, I get to move out of the Malfoy Manner and live with Max.  This is happening way to quick.  I am so nervous.  I mean, well, Max and I have never done much more than make-out.  He says that I'll get my own room though so perhaps I really have nothing to worry about.  Besides, his parents will be there too so I don't know what I'm so nervous about.  Just perhaps, it is the whole last year of school thing and the fact that right after my 18th birthday, I will start my training for the Ministry Job I have been given.

Oh, did I tell you about that one?  I probably haven't.  Well, I was offered a job as an Auror and, they also want me in the Department of Mysteries.  I think it has everything to do with the fact that Voldem0rt being my father and all.  And, the fact that I do indeed have an unwanted mental link with the monster.

THAT, the mental link, I think is what will cause me problems this year.  You see, Voldem0rt, he is becoming stronger than ever.  Even Dumbledore fears he is no longer more powerful than him.  Everyone keeps saying that Max and I are the only ones left that would have the chance to defeat him.  But then, only together.  But the Prophecy clearly states that Harry will be the one to destroy him, unless of course, Kalista, the dark angel within me, does it.  The prophecies also state that there is that possibility.  But Prophecies aside, I hope that Harry is the one to kill the old man.  He deserves the opportunity.  Well, enough for today.  I will write you some more perhaps tomorrow, or later tonight...Max and I are going to the lake.  I just might have some confessions to make by time we get back here.  See ya.

[ronweazley122]

Great!really,you have me hooked on every word...

[_Lavender_]

keep going, its great! ;)
:-*Lav

[Kiara Johnson]

September 12th-  Ok, Like I said, I would probably be writing to you later and well, it's later alright.  I just back up to my dorm room and it's 2 in the morning.  Max and I, as usual, started out just sitting by the lake .  (We use the far side, to keep from sight of the Prefects and teachers)  Well, any way, we were, well, ok, we were making-out and heard a sound in the forest, not far from us.  Of course, we just HAD to check it out.  Why we are so Curious is beyond me.



We entered the forest, both walking as quiet as mice and looked about.  Well, being REALLY dark in there, we couldn't see a single thing.  Then we heard it again and we both looked at one another and smiled.  It was a voice.  One we definitely didn't expect to see out here.  We stepped in the woods a little further and would you guess what we saw???  No, not in a million years, I'd wager.

It was Neville and this 6th year girl, a Hufflepuff I think.  They were making out!  OMG!  It was sooo amusing.  I never pictured Neville to EVER do anything like this.  Max and I backed out of the woods immediately and went back to our own fun by the lake.  Well, that's pretty much it for tonight.  I'll wrote after class tomorrow, that is IF, I can get in here sometime soon enough.  I DO, after all, have Qudditch practice

[_Lavender_]

BUMp,keep writing!

[Ginny Weasly]

like ron said, I'm hooked on every word!

[Evil_To_The_Max]

love it!keep going,K

[Kiara Johnson]

September 13th -  Just a small note.  Not much time have to get to the pitch.  Just wanted to make a note that I think Snape DOES seem to want to use the potion on me.  Why?  Is beyond me, especially when it was ME that saved his butt from my father this summer.  But I will tell you about that after Qudditch practice.


September 13th  -  It's after dinner now and I have some free time.  I was going to tell ou about what happened this summer and all so here goes:

Well, as you know, I stay with the Malfoys over the summer well, this DOES give me some advantages.  Like, I overheard the conversation between Lucius and some other Death Eater, not sure who it was, but at any rate, they were talking about Snape.  I caught his name and that's when I decided that perhaps I should eavesdrop on their conversation.  They had already started talking so I did miss the beginning but I caught the important part and that was that Voldem0rt ha indeed found out that Snape was spying for Dumbledore and not for him.  I knew that my father wouldn't let this go.  He would inevitably try to kill Snape.

I found out that Voldem0rt would be calling all his Death Eaters together that day so ran off to my room, avoiding Draco on the way and readied myself.  I couldn't send an owl to Dumbledore, it was to risky so, instead, I decided that I'd have to do this on my own.

That night, sure enough, Voldem0rt called all his Death Eaters to him.  How do I know this?  It is my choker, a present from my father who, instead of branding me, decided it would be best if he dressed me up in a choker that I can't take off and that stings every time he calls.

Well, I arrived in the spot of the meeting, and was able to find Snape before he walked into the clearing.  I had to tackle him to the ground to stop him.  Man!  He was pissed.  But after I explained what was up, he looked a bit paler than usual and he decided to leave.  Unknown to me, however,  Voldem0rt had stepped up behind us.  Boy he looked pissed, I mean, more so than usual.

What happened then, was nothing more than a pure show of power between myself and my father.  He immediately went for his wand and threw a killing curse at Snape.  I deflected it easily enough and yelled at Snape to leave.  He did as I said, amazingly.  The coward.

After, my father tried to turn on me and let me tell you, it was a sight, I would have one, if he hadn't had all his Death Eaters there to help him.  I really don't remember much after one of them, I think it was Lucius, he's the only one I find powerful enough to take me that way, caught me from behind with a stun spell.

Well, I hope that Snape knows what it was I did for him.  I don't think he really cares though.  I think he still feels I am a threat to all that he holds dear to him. (Sigh)  Alas, I don't know what else I can to, if saving his life doesn't convince him that I am on his side, I don't know what will.

Well, I think that's enough for now, Max is looking for me so I'm going.  Talk to you some more later perhaps, or at the very least, tomorrow.

[Evil_To_The_Max]

keep going...

[Ginny Weasly]

more!

[Kiara Johnson]

September 15th --  Sorry I have not written to you in a few days.  I have been rather busy.  It would seem that my father has already started his crap this year.  You see, I have this room that he made, especially for me, even before he knew I would be here.  Well, to make a long story short, this room calls to me constantly.  Sometimes, and this happened last night.  Some times I loose consciousness and end up in the room.  It's kinda like sleep walking but I'm awake.

Kinda hard to explain, really. here's what it feels like:

Imagine you are sleeping, then imagine you are dreaming then, imagine an imperious curse, what would it really feel like?  Well, that is nothing compared to the feeling of having a darkness in your mind, one that when awakens, tries to take over, not only your mind, but your whole body.

It is like your conscious self falls asleep but you can still see things through your own eyes but you are not seeing them for your self but for some one else. Then that, other presence, begins to take over your muscle movements, your whole nervous system and you suddenly don't feel the same any longer.  You try to scream but you have no voice, you try to stop your body from moving, but you don't have a body any longer, finally, you exhaust every last ounce of energy you have, trying to escape or control what's going on and you black out.

Many try and tell me that they've felt like they where in a trance before, or under the imperious curse, but none know the felling of complete self loss that you get from being possessed by another.  I can not explain it further I only whish, that perhaps one day.  She will go away, leave me.  I don't know her name, I know the Shadow is dead, but this one, she is even more powerful and when she decides to take over, I can not even conceive of fighting her.  I hope, that perhaps if I loose myself to her, some one might read this and know that I am sorry for anything she might do.  However, I feel a struggle in her as well.  It's almost like she, herself, doesn't really want to be dealing with my father.  She seems to want him dead, even more so then I.

Kalista and I can communicate, from time to time.  I really have no problems with her any longer.  I know she's not out to destroy what's good.  She seems to want nothing more than to help save the earth.  She has felt this one in her mind as well, and even the great Archangel of the earth, seems to fear her presence.  I don't know, perhaps when Kalista defied the under lord, she made yet another rift in time and perhaps, another prophecy will surface.

I have told Dumbledore about my thoughts and he promises to look out for anything, unusual.  I also, let Hermione in on the news.  She, of course, went straight to the books.  I had to explain that this one would be new and she'd have to begin reading newly published works to find it.  Dumbledore had shown her what to look for.  Perhaps, together, Hermione and Dumbledore can find the new prophecy, if it exists.  Well, enough for tonight.  I think I need to rest.  I'm so tired

[Evil_To_The_Max]

keep going

[Hermione~ Granger]

Keep going

[Ginny Weasly]

more more more!!

[Kiara Johnson]

September 16th -- Good morning, it's about 3 am and I can't sleep again.  Max has already gone off to bed and every one else in the Slytherin common room is like wise sleeping.  I sit in front of the fire as usual, staring into the dancing flames and wonder about my future.

I've wondered often what lies ahead for me and for both my brothers.  I am certain that Harry will join the Ministry and do a lot of good there but how is Voldem0rt being our father going to effect him?  I mean, after we defeat, and I know we will, Voldem0rt, what then?  Will we continue on the same as everyone else?  Or will the fates have yet another purpose for us, or our children?  I fear for my children, I don't even have yet.  I fear for them because I know that I am defeating every obstacle the fates have put in my way.  Not alone, mind you, but I have defeated all of them as of yet.  I think, however, this new one, the one I told you about yesterday, is going to be possibly the greatest battle yet.

On another note, I have felt a presence in the West tower, one that I have never before felt.  It seems, that the presence comes from my fathers' room.  Although, I can't imagine how, seeing as though I am the only one the door will open for.

Well, I think I will try and sleep again, can't say for sure.  I am so tired, but it seems that sleep just wont bless me as of late....