A child's cry

[Xaver]

He looked at her, curiously this time, when she spoke.
"What did you do.. while I was gone?"

An absent question - he didn't really know why he asked it..

Life moved on.. Kept going.
No matter what.

[Ginny Weasly]

"I had a child, stupid." She said, giggling slightly, "Honestly, after that I had no time for anything else. I quit all three of my jobs and disspappeared off the face of the earth to finish my pregnancy and raise him."

Ginny didn't mention the three months before that. She didn't mention the nights she sat up reading and rereading books about his race, trying different ways to contact him, and she didn't mention Sirius and/or Conan.

[Xaver]

"I had a child, stupid."

Xaver blinked at her, cursing himself with far more rancid words, almost grinning at her blunt reply, though it faded quickly.

Of course.
She had quit everything she had known to be with the child that was, again, Xaver's fault (just not a bad fault).

"Disappeared?"-Quietly.

[darkluv37]

"Moommmaaa!" The sound of her child crying not only woke Ginny, it broke her heart slightly. She opened her eyes, but it made no difference. Darkness enveloped the room, except for the digital clock. She quietly distangled herself from the covers, slipping out of bed and to the door.

She shut the door to her and Xaver's room behind her and stood for a moment in the dim light of a small nightlight plugged into a hall outlet. She ran a hand through her hair, listening for Cody's cries again. She head him sobbing softly into his pillow and moved down to his room.

Cody lay on his belly, his face buried into a pillow. Ginny went and sat on the edge of his bed, her hand on the small of his back.
"Angelbaby?" She said softly, "Did you have a nightmare?"

Cody let out a sob and sat up, throwing his arms around her neck, pressing his face into her shoulder, "Uh-huh.." He said, between sobs. Simply by her presence, he began to calm. She rubbed his back, leaning against the headboard and whispering to him softly. He slowly began to fall back asleep, and murmured, 'Momma, sing to me...?"

Ginny kissed the top of his head, thinking for a moment. Then, slowly, she began to sing.
"Dancing bears,
Painted wings,
Things I almost remember,
And a song someone sings,
Once upon a December
Someone holds me safe and warm,
Horses prance through a silver storm,
Figures dancing gracefully across my memory...
Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart used to know
Once upon a December"

Her voice was soft, low and quieting. Even before she finished singing, Cody was asleep, comforted by her voice.

OMG i <3 that song lol

[Ginny Weasly]

Ginny nodded, "I came here, when I was three months pregnant...no one knew where I was, and I blocked everything. I basically disappeared until Cody was six months old. I needed to figure out what was best for me and my son."

She grew silent, remembering those times. She remembered when she had announced her resignation at Hogwarts, how Sarah had followed her, asking why, wanting to know why. She remembered Sirius simply nodding in a do-what-you-will way. She remembered going to her parent's home one last time and letting them know how to write her letters.

Then she was gone. She had come here, bought a house far away from all she'd ever known. That was the most important thing. She didn't want her child to grow up in the life she had left behind. Here was safe, here with scarce neighbors and none of her kind. No magic, no psychics, nothing to taint her son's innocence. She wanted him to be as happy as possible.

And in her experience, magic didn't help much with happiness.

Finally, she spoke again, "When Cody was about six months old...I finally took him to my parent's...he didn't even have a name then..."

[Xaver]

Xaver listened quietly, watching Ginny closely now, instead of the ceiling.
"You gave up your life for him."
There was understanding in his low tones, threaded with other emotions he wasn't sure how to voice.

"..He didn't have a name?"

In a dull sort of realization, he knew why, too...

[Ginny Weasly]

"No," Ginny laughed lowly, "I had some false hope that you were coming back any day..." She looked up at him, smiling slightly, "I didn't want to name him by myself...he wasn't only mine...I didn't make him on my own, so how could I name him on my own?"

[Xaver]

Xaver wrapped his arm a little tighter around her, and held her closer to him.
"False hope, humm?"

He said it quietly - he understood that, too.
"I guess it didn't seem like I was going to come back, did it?.."

Xaver looked at her for a moment, catching her smile, and allowing it to warm him like a summer breeze over his seemingly frost-bitten insides.
"And naw, you didn't make him yourself, love."
He smiled, cheekily.

[Ginny Weasly]

Ginny smirked, "That was the most surprising part to my parents." She laughed.

[Xaver]

Xaver looked at her, his smile solemn, but still devilishly playful.

"Mm - that I wasn't coming back, or that you didn't create a baby on your lonesome?"

[Ginny Weasly]

"The latter," She looked up at him, somehow managing not to smile. Inside, she was laughing, but looking at him, her face showed no expression except her eyes. They twinkled with her amusment.

[Xaver]

Xaver grinned at her. Despite her lack of smile, he couldn't help it. He kissed the tip of her nose, and shook his head, laying back onto the pillows, and laughing, his tones low, warm sounds, as they rumbled through his chest, and fluttered out, even though he bit his bottom lip, trying, without success, to quiet them.

"They should know that even you, my love, aren't that powerful. If that was even possible."

Or that innocent?
His grin widened.

[Ginny Weasly]

When he laughed, she couldn't hold her own giggles back, even though she tried. She shook her head slightly, grinning back at him.
"I think it was mostly a surprise because we weren't married...had no plans to be at the time..and they had only met you a few times." She shrugged, "In fact, my dad didn't even remember who you were until I reminded him."

Ginny was quiet, a smal smile still on her lips, "My parents still see me as I was when I was Cody's age."

She kinda liked that.

[Xaver]

Xaver's smile softened, slightly.
"You didn't have plans," he murmured.

Xaver had been going to drop on his knees, and profess everything to Ginny. Ask of her, everything. Ready to give her, everything. Before either of them had learned of Cody's existance. Before he'd gone...
He'd never gotten the chance, after that.
-Well. Until much later.

"Good to know I make a lasting impression," he said, trying a grin again.
"And you're their only girl, and their baby. What can they do, really?"
He shrugged.

[Ginny Weasly]

Ginny nodded, "I suppose. I think my mum isn't too happy with you still." She shook her head, smiling slightly.

Molly was happy that Ginny was happy, and that Cody has his father. But it would take her a while until she could forgive Xaver for leaving Ginny like that, no matter what his excuse had been.