join plz coz im bored

[ChoChangHP118]

(srry i was on spring break since friday!!!!!)
*sirius walks up from behind sarah taking the salad* thanks!

(aww! i took your food! that's how we become a couple!! how cute of me! lol)


when you were off with curtis i mean! when you were in the woods. remember! with voldemort!

(oh ya that would be good)

[Shara2007]

(oh that is so sweet.)

"Ya I was with him in the woods because you were all over Breanna." Sarah then looked away she was going crazy and besides she wanted a butterbeer bad.

"Besides Curtis and Cho, Ginny. They are trying to help me or did you not relize it." SArah siad as she looked at him.

"Sirius Black your girlfriend was an Alcholic. Cho went to get the butterbeer because she was going to end up putting pumpkin juice in it." Sarah now set on the floor and cryed.

"You did not ever relize that though. Curtis did he was helping me train. In the forest he was being nice because we droke up. You should be happy for him. Because if he was not there I was going to go get drunk." Sarah siad looking Siruis in the eyes. Her eyes were not felled with love and happyness they were now felled with hurt.

[ChoChangHP118]

*sirius looked into her col eyes that once had love towards him.*
don't bring cho and ginny into this. especially ginny...
and your right, i didn't realize it. because you wouldn't tell me anything! i asked you over and over about everything....but no. you said it was a secret. and i should be happy for him! that thing that is making us like this! *points to him and her*

[Shara2007]

"No the secreat was the training Sirius. I'm training to fight people and kill. Ginny is doing that because I keep wandering around at night looking for my butter beer i hide places." Sarah looked at him.

"I would not tell any of them about my drinking problem because I don't want to admit I have one." Sarah then went over and looked out the window.

"All I want to do now a days is dissapper. I've hurt to many people." Sarah turned to face him.

"You want to know where the old Sarah is right. That is the thing I don't know." Sarah know started to shake.

"The old me is out there somewhere. I just don't know where to look to find it." Sarah tryed to smile at him.

"Siruis like I said before. I love you. I always will. Right now though I'm not sure how to love anyone since I can't love myself."

[ChoChangHP118]

*grabs her shoulders to try and support her. he leads her over to a chair and cojurs up a glass of water water.* here drink this *hw said handing her the cup*

*he knealed down in front of her.* why couldn't you tell me about the training though? relationships aren't good with secrets. i'm not hiding anything from you....why are you?

and whatever happens, i'll help you! i'll travel to the end of the earth to find the old sarah. the one that i love more then anything in the world!

*looks into her eyes* so. tell me what to do and i'll do it. i'd do anything to help you baby!

*says softly* i would die for you.

[Shara2007]

Sarah drinks the water and stands up.

"Sirius that is the thing I don't know where the old me is at." Sarah then looked away before she said the next thing.

"I think that it is best that I try to find it on my own. I think that you should date Cho." Sarah then looked at him.

"I'm in trouble. I want a butterbeer but know I should not. I don't want to lose you again because you try to stop me and I attack you. So I hate to say this." Sarah then walked to the door crying hard.

"I think though Sirius that we should stay away from each other for right now. At least uptil I get the old Sarah back." Sarah then bite her lip.

"You siad you would do anything for me. Well then stay away please." Sarah siad as she looked at him.

"I'm not leaving till you promise." Sarah looked at him in the eyes. Hers were full of sorrow and pian. "I'll alway love you. When I find her I'll come back."

[ChoChangHP118]

(holy crap you just made me shed a tear! lol)

*sirius stood up. looked into sarah's eyes and knew.* i will be waiting for you, always.

*he turned and walked out. for the last time*

[Shara2007]

(thanks i'm good at that)

Sarah decided to go to the Three Broomstick.

"I'd like a butterbeer please." Sarah siad as she looked around she felt bad but she did it for the best.

"Thank you. I want to keep them coming." Sarah drank them and then after the 8 one she decided to go to the forest.

*Why me. What did I do.* Sarah layed there and fell asleep she was not going to go back to the castle uptil she found the old Sarah everyone loved.

[harrypotterfan:)]

((Sarah you like me....???))

[Shara2007]

(no Sirius likes you. I like you as a friend.)

[harrypotterfan:)]

*Well Sarah you don't have to be too bummed out....that means you can continue....there are so many more guys out there for you.*

[Shara2007]

*Cho I know. But I loved him and he loves the old me. Not the drunk witch. He loved the one that lets him take her food and drawls.* Sarah then got to thinking.

*I'm not coming back uptil I have this under control. So don't come looking for me* Sarah knew where she was but could not have them looking for her. Sarah then sat there and cryed till she feel asleep.

[harrypotterfan:)]

*Sarah are you still there....* Cho then realized she had gone to sleep but was still worried.

[Shara2007]

Sarah dreamed that she was pouring out all the butterbeer she every owned. After about 30 minutes Sarah wook up it was dark outside so Sarah decided to go for a swim.

"This fells great." Sarah siad once she walked out. She walked by her and Sirius tree. Before she could stop her self she was crying and craving away at her name so that you could not tell it was every there.

"Sorry but I'f I'm going to find the really me I need to fix that right now." Sarah then went back to the Castle to grab some of her clothes and finish the butterbeer in her room.

[harrypotterfan:)]

Cho went into her room knocking first. "Sarah please let me in."