though a [child's] eyes

[Ginny Weasly]

Cody's smile faltered at her question. As far as he knew, Ginny had no clue where he was. But she would find out soon enough, and he couldn't put off punishment forever, "No ma'am..." He answered softly. He gazed at Sarah with all the sweetness and innocence he could muster and let his lower lip tremble, "She wouldn't have let me go if she knew."

Ginny's eyes were sad, her voice and expression pleading with him, "I need to know...so I can destroy your reason." She told him, shaking her head, "Sirius, you caring for me as you do will only end in your pain...don't you understand?" She cared about him, yes. She had for a long while. But in the face of blatant honesty, he would never be her first choice. Hardly a second even. Xaver was someone she loved without trying, not at all like anybody else.
She buried her head in her hands again, her fingers tangled in her impossibly bright red hair. She had a headache.

[Shara2007]

Sarah smiled at Cody when he added all innocent. She loved the trouble makers as friends for some reason. "Well then I guess we will have to keep quiet about it. I bet she knows though since she was outside talking to Sirius."

Sarah then walked over and poured her a small glass of the butterbeer. She knew better then to do it but she wanted to. She then took a drink. "So you pick what animal you want. I mean I'm closed so it is just us and you can pick any one you want."

She had put the closed sign up about 5 minutes ago when Sirius left.

[ChoChangHP118]

"G.od d/am/nit Ginny can't you see i have no reason! Day after day I sit wondering why you are stuck in my head. I can't explain why i feel this way! Its hard to destroy reason when there is no reason. I would love nothing more then to let you have your peace with Xaver and Cody, but seeing him makes me wish he were dead." Sirius wanted to scream at her but found no words to express how angered he was by his own emotions. His eyes turned a bright red color as he glared at her.

[Ginny Weasly]

At the mention of death, Ginny sat up sharply, and as he finished his rant, she stood, in front of him again, "You wish my son dead?" She asked, her soft voice hiding the anger.
"You sonuvabich, Sirius! You and your stupid emotions! You and your stupidity!" She growled, "It's your fault, you know. If you hadn't kissed me, none of this would be like it is! I could live in peace! As well you could." She sank to her knees in front of her, her hands folded on his knees, "Don't you get it Sirius? If you truly cared about me, if you really did, you would accept the two being I care most for in this world....the two beings...the two entities who make me happy!" She was begging him, half angry, half sobbing.

Cody glanced at her, "Huh?" He asked, "Mom's outside?"

[Shara2007]

Sarah looked at him as she then walked to the window and watched it. "Yes she is. I mean the looks as if she talking with Sirius."

She the walked back to the kicthen and poured more of her butterbeer bottle into her glass before walking back to the spot and watching. She then looked at Cody and wrapped an arm around him. "It going to be fine. I mean she will straiten it out. So you pick what you wanted yet."

She was just trying to stop from getting her heart broken even more she could not handle this. She then sent him a message. *Sirius I just wanted to tell you that your pictures outside my door. Cody was right humans do make themselves sad when happy. I don't want you in my life making it sad because your in love with another girl and keep breaking my heart. So I hope you keep the picture. Hope you are happy alone since Ginny will never choose you to*

Sarah then downed the glass she just had and smiled happy at Cody.

[ChoChangHP118]

"Ginny believe me, I have tried to get past that, I really have. I've helped Xaver out more then I ever imagined helping somebody who has you out. In the end though, it comes down to one thing. He has you. For some godforesaken reason I can't get over it! I do not wish your son dead Ginny, never would I wish that upon a child such as him." Sirius's body seemed to freeze as he peered down at Ginny with helpless eyes.

[Ginny Weasly]

Ginny dissolved into tears, placing her forehead on his knees and crying gently, "How is it that you hate tem so? They are extensions of me!" She cried harder, her hands still clasped, almost in prayer, "You hate me most of all...in the worst way, for it is disguised as love..."
It really bothered her.

Cody looked nervously towards the window, "What's going on out there?" He asked, fearfully, "Why do I feel so afraid?" His voice a whisper now. He couldn't see his mother's tears, and it was better that way, for he would have struck at Sirius for making her cry.

[Shara2007]

Sarah looked at him. She was trying to be strong with Cody so scared. "Please Cody it will be fine. I mean she just I think sad because of the fact that Sirius still loves her and well she could never love him. I mean she loves you and Xaver with all her heart. I know that much."

Sarah then looked down knowing that her heart was broke. She lost the one love she had. "Sirius was upset because you look like your dad and that makes him know he can't have her."

[ChoChangHP118]

Sirius I just wanted to tell you that your pictures outside my door. Cody was right humans do make themselves sad when happy. I don't want you in my life making it sad because your in love with another girl and keep breaking my heart. So I hope you keep the picture. Hope you are happy alone since Ginny will never choose you to

Sirius swallowed and licked his lips as he was hit by two angry women at once. Slowly he closed his eyes, and a tear fell from his cheak onto Ginny's hand. This was the first time in a long time that Sirius had cried.
"I'm sorry for any pain I've caused you Ginny."

[Ginny Weasly]

"You have no idea..." Ginny muttered thickly through her own tears. Suddenly, quickly, she stood, pressing the heels of her hands into her eyes to make herself stop crying. She was angry now, she'd been perfectly happy in her life, but nothing could continue to stay good for her, could it? Nothing could stay happy.

How it angered her. Infuriated her! She was just one more example of a human who needed something in life to whine about.


Cody looked at Sarah, his eyes narrowing suddenly, "He made Momma sad?" He went back to his old name for Ginny, one that had developed when there had been no one else and he had clung to her like glue, "Does he wish for death that badly?"

[Shara2007]

Sarah looked at Cody. She was not sure what to tell him.

"Ya he made lots of us sad. If he does I'm not afraid to help. I mean you taugh me to keep a smile on my face. Then he came and has upset it all." Sarah then bent down and faced the kid. "How about I go get your mom and she can come in here and get happy with us."

[Ginny Weasly]

"Momma was happy, until he came around." Cody seethed, "Momma doesn't need such a poison in her life. He's wicked, worse than my dad's brother, because he holds hearts in his hands. Because people love him, and he unintentionally hurts them. Such pain is worse than intentional." He growled, clenching his fists.

"I have a better idea, Miss Sarah. How about I go get my mom?"

[Shara2007]

Sarah looked at him and then smile. She was not going to let him go by himself and hurt Sirius yet.

"Well how about this. We both go." Sarah then stood back up and walked to the door and unlocked it.

"I mean that sounds like a plan to me."

[ChoChangHP118]

"Ginny I'm sorry ok!" Sirius said standing desperately. A day that had started out well suddenly had become dark and terrible. Sirius stared at Ginny, scared right down to his very core. "Ginny I'm sorry okay. I will leave right now, right now, and never bother you or Cody or Xaver again. Is that what you want? Ginny I would do anything to make you happy. I see now that I can't make you happy though."

[Ginny Weasly]

As soon as the door was unlocked, Cody darted through it, going in a straight line to Ginny. He threw his arms around her legs, almost knocking her over in his hurry to comfort her. He buried his face in her robes and squeezed, doing all he could think of to make his mom happy.

Ginny's tears stopped immediately, though they didn't dry. She reached down and gently rubbed the top of Cody's head, "It's okay angel." She murmured.