though a [child's] eyes

[ChoChangHP118]

Sirius continued walking. Feeling depressed wasnt a ndew thing for him. Ever since he left Hogwarts things only seemed to get worse as the years past. He had no problem with Cody and Xaver and what they were. He admired them in all actuality. At the end of the day though Sirius's ego couldn't handle his lust for Ginny. He slowly walked to where Sarah stood looking out the window. He looked at her from the other side and placed his hand on the window. Breathing slowly. "I'm sorry." He mouthed to her from behind the glass.

[Shara2007]

Sarah knew that if she wanted to even have a chance with him she might want to open the door. She then walked over and unlocked it allowing him to come in. She then walked over and stood at the window again. She took another drink from the bottle.

"I forgive you but I'm not sure if totally. I mean it my fault all this fighting started. I mean I should not have told cody that you liked his mother." Sarah looked at him. Her eyes had went back to being the ones that she used to have. They were dark and looked at if there was no life in them at all. She was glad that it was off her chest in some ways but upset that she did it.

[ChoChangHP118]

"Its perfectly alright. I shouldn't have these feelings in the first place. I mean, I love you. There's something about Ginny though that draws me unintentionally to her."

"I'm so sorry."

[Shara2007]

Sarah looked at him. "Ya your right I guess." Sarah then set the butterbeer bottle down in a pot hoping that she could throw it away later and him not know.

"So why you come by this morning."

[ChoChangHP118]

"To shorten it would have to be the reason I just said. I love you and I'm sorry. I brought you that picture and such to show you the old times we had. The good times."

[Shara2007]

Sarah looked at him as she looked outside at the picture. She then ran up and wrapped her arms around him and started to cry.

"It just so hard. I mena everything brings back memories and then I relize that I miss it and can't get it back. " She then looked into his eyes.

[ChoChangHP118]

Sirius smiled and his breath was taken from his lungs as he felt Sarah's touch once more. He breathed heavily and looked into her eyes. "I know. I also know I messed up, and I'm sorry. Every gosh dam day I'm sorry for that."

[Shara2007]

Sarah smiled at she looked at him.

"Well you mess up a lot but that what I love you for. I mean even when you do you come back kicking. And saying sorry."

[ChoChangHP118]

Sirius smiled to her. "If it matters, I'll always come back for you."

[Shara2007]

"Ya I know that. That what I am so afraid of. I mean come one I would hate it if you came back to me and then ruin your chance of being the best Auror. " Sarah then out of no where leaned in and kissed him.

[ChoChangHP118]

Sirius was taken back at first but then kissed her back before smiling, "I would give up everything to be with you though. Always and forever."

[Shara2007]

Sarah pulled back and looked at him. "that what I'm afraid of. I mean I don't want to be a burden. I mean I went to drink a little again but I'm stoping and your going to keep working."

Sarah then felt guilty that she lied and told him that she was only drinking a little. So the went to work on a puppy and she was not looking at him at all.

[ChoChangHP118]

Sirius followed her and watched her as she worked for a moment. "Well then tell me what I can do! I want to help, I'll do anything."

"Anything..."

[Shara2007]

"You mean that well then this is what you can to. Become that Auror. Then come back and give me back my heart. I mean you will always have my heart." Sarah was not wanting to look at him because she had tears going down her face. She then walked towards the owls.

"Oh and while you do that come visit me."

[ChoChangHP118]

Sirius followed her still. "Is there nothing I can do now? I will give up everything for you."